Hope Express @ 9-3/4th platform!

“As I wait today like many other days...I am thinking ...It’s not my first time in Life’s waiting room. It’s been quiet some time, yet I don’t fail to get up everyday & keep checking frequently if the train has arrived on the platform I am waiting on....

Like in Harry Potter, Hogwarts Express has a hidden platform (9-3/4th) to on-board the students. I do seem to be experiencing a similar platform, which is in between ...in limbo ...I see people arriving and boarding around me but somehow I have been an issued a ticket to board from a platform 9-3/4th  which is hard to find & makes you wait... ☺️ 

Unlike real railway stations; 

Life’s waiting room can get very quiet...you don’t have many others waiting with you...as they don’t even know such Platform of life exists ..not everyone has to wait in life...

If you do, happen to meet others waiting on this very elusive platform, remember to be ‘kind’ to them... as you know what they are going through...yet, don’t ever delude yourself into thinking that you have many others travelling with you on your journey ...we all are on a solo trip & no two journeys are the same ...

By now I have realised ...Even though you may give your best in some phase of your life all you can do is wait & that time is pre-defined you cannot speed it up...

You will have to do your best to keep yourself occupied as you wait...

Its definitely not easy & I know for sure that on some days ...as you wait ...the atmosphere can be full of frustration, anticipation, dullness, anxiety, filled with silence & even hopelessness... you may have to pinch yourself once in a while to know you are still alive...

We don’t have an option to cancel our journey’s ticket as it’s a pre paid gift given to our soul to experience travels to this part of universe called earth ...

We can definitely try to take alternative routes to reach the destination and If you don’t know the path or destination... just move ahead ...sometimes making the journey gives us all the clarity we need...

Our eyes will keep longing to see the train show up from just around the corner & ears hope to hear the sharp whistle indicating the wait is over...

I can promise you ...that the sight of the train & sound of the whistle after such a wait in your life ...will fill your entire being ...you will be able to hear your heartbeat again... your eyes will shimmer again & the child in us will nudge us and say... let’s go or we will miss the train! 

In this journey of life ... ‘hope’ is the only train we need to catch... with this belief in our soul that the journey given to us by our maker turns out to be far more beautiful than what we had imagined. ...

Till then...we breathe & wait in life’s waiting room..this shall too pass”

Zindagi

A Hindi poem...scribbled in English...

Aaj zindagi badalne ko man karta hae...

jo banaya hae usko mita kar...

phir se kuch naya likhne ko man karta hae...

jo log chalae gaye raaste mein, unko bhool jane ko man karta hae...

aaj ek naya panna kholne ko man karta hae...

pichhe mud kar kya dekho..

jab apna saya bhi apna nahin lagta hae...

aaj phir zindagi mein ek naya mod lane ko man karta hae...

dar ke jo kati hae ab tak, woh zindagi theek karne ko man karta hae...

aaj bina dar ke zindagi jine ko man karta hae...

peeche kuch hae nahin, aagae kuch dikhta nahin...

bas ab ya ek pal jinae ko man karta hae…

jab tak saans hae tab tak khul kar hasnae or hasanae ko man karta hae...

zindagi bina dar ke jinae ko man karta hae…

Aaj zindagi badalne ko man karta hae...

Jaya

To My Hero...Aum Mani Padme Hung

It was said that in 2012 the world will end on 21^st December…however for me a part of my world ended on 25^th November when my hero ‘my dad’ began his new journey & said a goodbye to mother earth….

Some say there is Life after Death…some say it all ends here…many questions hit me since this happened if you have lost some one you loved…you must have realized that time is the only healer…the pain subsides like a pain killer showing effect slowly…yet the memory stays…Till date on every single day I think of him & always will….

I am not an authority to say if there is Life after death or not….yet I can share that we are an amalgamation of ...every relationship, every person we love or hate hence when people we love leave they take some part of our soul with them...

It’s said we don’t choose families yet theory of Karma says we do…it’s just that we don’t have any memory of it during out lifetime. I am glad I choose him for whatever karmic reasons...

He taught me few things….which to me implies not only what his life was but also what he wanted me to achieve in my life….the whole idea of us getting a family is converting our individuality for better through the lessons they teach us every day....

Some lessons we take with pinch of salt, some we don’t understand in our lifetime…the lesson I remember most from him of what he used to say when I felt low....“Manzile unko milti hai, jinke sapno main jaan hoti hai, pankho se kucha nahi hota, hoslon se udaan hoti hai.” …every time I hit rock bottom till date I say this to myself…

The most valuable thing your parent's can leave for you is memories...which define you....it's the time you told them how much you love them...as that is all that will be missed once they part ways...

We have technology today yet I wish some day we invent a phone or some medium where you can call the person who is now on an astral journey to hear them again…till then let’s try to talk to them in our dreams & tell them….

“If memories could build a stairway

and tears a memory lane

I'd walk right up to heaven

and bring you home again.

No Farewell words were spoken

No time to say good-bye

You were gone before I knew it

And only God knows why...

My heart's still active in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know.

But now I know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten
I pledge to you today
that you are with me in my thoughts

today & everyday"

I pray till we meet again...that you live in happiness, peace & contentment in the astral world....I salute you & chant for your peace & happiness...Love you always...my hero!

"Aum Mani Padme Hung"

Chambers of Mind or Magic

Path untold I have taken in journey of my life still every time I need to start over my mind is in transfix of time.  Magic is required in some moments to let go. Yet we wish we knew some easy witchcraft to let go.

A snap of a magical wand is what we want sometimes to transform our lives & more…but I can tell you, to expect magic without spelling out the obvious in our lives.....is a complete no-no.

As night breaks into dawn I find myself asking ‘Where did we lose the days when things were simple?’ When every experience in our life did not have to be dissected to understand why we feel, what we feel.  

My being fills up & takes a sip of a good cocktail named ‘Feeloughts’, a fair mix of feeling, topped up with oodles of thoughts…

I keep sipping it till I lose sanity & ask myself when did I start needing spirit to feel my soul's cavity….With few more sips of Feeloughts I start feeling high, visiting 'unknown chambers’ in my soul....I had officially lost control.

I saw white light through a moonlit sky, stars twinkling & cool breeze hitting my face....I am walking on a moonlit beach with ocean water accompanying me...

For long I keep walking ‘alone’ next to the mysterious ocean…a voice starts walking with me….& keeps returning to my ears, it’s like a distant laugh which makes you shake in fear….I choose to ignore & keep walking till the voice becomes more & more clear ....I stop, I pause and I freeze…like a mermaid suddenly appearing from the water of life…I see some light yet no one in sight, I halt & realize that the voice is coming from my inside…

I snap & find myself asking it to 'keep quiet’; I hear the voice laugh & tell me ‘why were you ignoring me I am trying to call you to visit the chambers of your own mind’.

I find my knees locked & in fear close my eyes......only to find myself running in dark alleys with hardly any light,  losing clarity of sight, I can see black long robe dressed witches running for my soul, I finally fall without any control..my body gets filled with pain untold...I feel a teardrop of fear rolling down my eyes, as my body shakes & a chill passes by my spine...I feel dead still thinking when did i reach here in time....

I look at the stretch of Ocean which I revere & find myself asking for magic to get me out of this state of mind....My dark shadow gets covered with moonlight…I close my eyes in pain & constantly fighting the images of fear...

The dark images in my chambers of mind stay for a long time....till I even, lose track of time...

The dusk slowly starts clearing up & the moon shines again on my face….I see myself smiling as if no one can take anything away…I see colorful angels dancing away….flower bed of daisies blooming & flowing with cool breeze….the funny thing is the ocean had healed my being.....words can’t express the love I felt, the safety I felt...I beamed as I had entered the chambers of magic which are beyond the human mind.

I feel ocean waves washing away my tears…I open my eyes to see sun rising & wiping away the shadows of mind….I don’t want to leave the ‘chambers of magic’ which do exist in our mind…yet we have to crossover the dark alleys to see magic occur in life...

I find myself smiling still in pain with an affirmation everything passes by…I visit my chambers of magic more than the dark chambers of mind to start believing in magic & rub loads of magic in my life! 

The Pythagoras Theorem of Life....

If the triangle had a right angle (90°) ...... and you made a square on each of the three sides, then ...... the biggest square had the exact same area as the other two squares put together!

Remember this one this was the ‘Pythagoras theorem’ taught to us in mathematics in our ‘younger days’…which I strongly think could have been to put better use than mugging ‘borrowed knowledge’...Anyways, education has its limitations one of them being ‘mug up everything which may or may not be relevant to your inner abilities till you reach a point where everything you had swallowed gets hard to juggle’

Now, going back to the theorem.... think about it again…If the triangle (let’s say is your life) had a right angle & you made a square on each of the three sides…then the biggest square had the exact same areas as the other two squares put together…

Let’s say the three squares you made in the triangle of life were heart, mind & soul then no matter which one was the biggest in your life…they all still had the exact same area in your existence & hopefully life would be at the right angle

Heart says ‘open up yourself to love & rest shall follow’, mind says ‘I am practical, follow me’, soul says ‘follow your heart & let the mind rest’…

Now, the ‘Pythagoras Theorem’ of life was never taught to us so obviously you don’t have any kunji(guide book) on life to refer hence you are lost most part of your life, thinking why does my life doesn’t form a right angle.

So, here we are in our human form figuring out the mathematics of our life.
Interesting isn’t it…...to me the theorem has made sense after years; my life has not formed any right angle...& believe me I tried & I did listen to all the three squares of my life…at different points.

My theorem read this way till few days.... Life = Money + wisdom + Happiness + security + good health & let me throw in love as an add-on to this equation,
Guess what it only got more complicated as I grew up & life was never at the right angle.

Then the other day…don’t ask me date, time etc. as it just happened, like self-healing process…Life seemed irrelevant..So I got into the mental trip of dissecting the equation…

Money seemed like a chase to Mackenna’s gold, Wisdom seemed like borrowed knowledge Happiness felt unreal, Security felt like an illusion, good health far from reality & Love was hard to find

Not only did I want this equation to work for me but people who were in my life…God & cosmos were tired …& the growing population on earth was not making it any easier..
Just Imagine, if cosmos had to cater to our demands/prayers….. through a queue system...in the invisible queue I had been on hold from decades now…I did think of hanging up, then the optimist in me said ‘please don’t hang up, your call is of value to us, your call will be answered soon’

The call still is on hold but I think the wait made me solve the theorem to life…
Is it correct I don’t care much as long as life is forming a right angle..
Life = Time + Karma + Change
‘Time’ all you have is ‘NOW’, Realize it,
‘Karma’ all you can do is ‘ACT’, Do it,
‘Change’ all you think is yours will ‘GO AWAY’, Live it,
&
Somewhere without you knowing...life will form a ‘Right Angle’

Stay blessed!

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